Friday, September 28, 2007

Tonight I sit here thinking about the good and evil in people. I have always chased after the good in people. I am a seeker. I seek to find the good and show it to many people. Its confirmation for me that there is good out there. Recently it has been brought to my attention that someone that I considered a dear friend is full of evil ways. As I am often reminded, there's only two options God's way or Satan's way. The fight of Good vs. Evil. I believe that there is a constant battle here on earth that is being fought between good and evil. The ones conscious of the battle are fewer than there should be. I sense evil in some people. Sometimes it is too disguised for me to realize what it truly is. As I understand it, everyone is a sinner. We are born with a sinful nature. So shouldn't we believe that all people have "bad" in them, instead of all people have "good" in them. Maybe I'm being too negative, but right now I'm finding bad in those that I thought were good people. It hurts. It hurts really badly. Someone that you've told deepest secrets too, playing for the "other team." But I guess that's why I should be more careful with whom I share intimate details. There is a relationship that I must desolve. I don't do this very often. It always feels like part of my heart has been ripped away, and it leaves a black hole. I guess I should prepare for another hole.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Today wasn't all that special. I worked, came home and fed the kids hot dogs. Of course my oldest wants chili with sauteed onions. So I did that, send the kids to shower, and they took forever. Broke a plate, ds7 tore down the shower curtain, and I sent the other two to the tub in the other bathroom. I finally went to lay down and right when I was about to drift off, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I had indigestion. I got up and took something, and went to potty. I came back and grabbed a drink and noticed that I left the stove on. OMG! If I wouldn't have had indigestion the house could have burned down with us asleep! The ways that God keeps us safe are unusual at times, but Glory be to God! My kids are tucked in safely for the night, and I'm on my way back to bed.

P.S. I also forgot to do this journaling....but I was then reminded to count my blessings.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

New to Journaling....again

Today was one of those days where I really didn't want to get out of bed, but did anyways. I started out by waking up dd5 and then ds10 and ds7. I came down the hall and to the bathroom off the laundry room. A few minutes later, I realize that Payton needs a shower, and all three kids are still in bed. After a few minutes the house is alive. Kayla can't find the correct clothes to wear, and we end up getting to the bus stop only about 30 seconds before the bus. On the way back home, I'm shaking all over and decided to take a personal day.

Flylady's routines. Basically the morning routine is to shower and get dressed to shoes, breakfast, unload the dishwasher. Simple you say. Well It happened but took a while to do. I did a few more things online, and read a devotion from I didn't ever get my hair fixed nicely, and ended up taking a long nap.

Morning routine again at 1PM. I felt better after a lot of prayers and and the nap, so I got in the shower again, for another try. I ended up with a cute outfit that I would have never put together on a different day, and had a salad with some talapia that is sooo easy, and I've gotten used to eating on my days off.

Later I picked up the kids, and went to town. The kids really weren't that bad, but dd5 just didn't feel well and was very cranky. After talking to ds10's teacher, we went back to the school to pick up books that he forgot at school. He ended up forgetting a notebook but we didn't go back for that one.

Later on tonight we watched Kid Nation. That show rocks!! I'm now trying to come up with how we can inccorperate this along with Flylady and The House Fairy. I'm not real sure, but the golden star has got to be part of it. Of course I want us to be the Purple Team!!

Part of the devotion today, was to comit to journaling for 30 days. These were the "rules" so to speak about it:

Application Steps: If you don’t already have a journal, make or purchase one. Commit for 30 days to write something in it every day about God. This could be something you thank God for or how you have seen Him revealed in your life or the lives of others that day.Reflections: Name one way the writing of another person has changed your life?What is one of characteristic of God you have learned from reading the Bible?If you were going to write a story about one thing God has done in your life, what would it be?Power Verses:Exodus 34:27-28, “Then the LORD said to Moses, ‘Write down these words, for in accordance with these words I have made a covenant with you and with Israel.’ Moses was there with the LORD forty days and forty nights without eating bread or drinking water. And he wrote on the tablets the words of the covenant—the Ten Commandments.” (NIV)Jeremiah 30: 1-2, “This is the word that came to Jeremiah from the LORD: This is what the LORD, the God of Israel, says: 'Write in a book all the words I have spoken to you.’” (NIV)Isaiah 49:16a, “See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands …” (NIV)

So here goes:

Reflections for today
I've been trying to persue a new relationship that's more meaningful than most of the ones in my past. I find myself praying for this man a great deal. He has been very busy lately, and I feel like I'm being ignored. Today I realized that he is a very Christ-like man, and I need to have patience. God doesn't give us answers on our timetable. So all of these prayers for a relationship may or may not have been not answered. I am really starting to realize that time really is not the same for everyone including God. I also know that there is nothing that I can't do without God. Depression can only be beat if I work on it God's way. I must have faith in Him to beat this. It was like a magic pill after all the praying today. I took that nap and when I woke up, I was a different person. Its amazing what the grace of God can do. Its like he touched me and started the healing process right then and there. Isn't that awesome!